sherlock

as sherlock the genius said before, you post lyrics of some remotely related song when you're too lazy to blog but you still want to blog. so here goes.

Shine
Mr Big (quite a cute name. haha)

I never really feel quite right
I don't know why, all I know is there's something wrong
Every time I look at you, you seem so alive

Tell me how do you do it, walk me through it
I'm following every footstep

Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?

But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me
Shine on this life that's burning out

I say a lot of things sometimes that don't come out right
And I act like I don't know why
I guess a reaction is all I was looking for

You looked through me, you really knew me like no one has EVER looked before

Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?

But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me
Shine on this life that's burning out

I know, I know, girl you got something

SHINE (shine it on to me)
Shine down on me (I wanna feel it)
Shine on this life that's burning out

Baby on your own you take a cautious step
Do you wanna give it up?

But all I want is for you to SHINE
Shine down on me (just show me something)
Shine on this life that's burning out (you give me something that I never
know)

Shine (it gonna kill me if you give something away)
Shine yeaaah (I wanna know what's going in on your mind)
Shine on this life that's burning out

lolzxzx. its from the soundtrack of the original hellsing series. its in the end credits. but its quite awkward to have this song after an hour of bloody vampire hunting violence. hmm. but its nice anyway.

but sherlock more than proved his intellectual abilities yesterday night. after studying bio i went online to tell him about a strange dream i had.

me: yest night i had damn wierd dream
S: telll
me: haha. one part of it got you and _ like together and thanking me for some reason i cant rmbr
S: okay. thanks anyway.
me: haha. lolzxzxzx.
S: ya so like do smhtn la thn we get thgr thn i thank u
me: haha set arh.

then we talk some more stuff.

S: oh no nazir don so sad can.
me: i not sad lah
S: now u must try n find the flaws. yeah!
me: just confused and wierd.

lol.

S: u shld talk to &
me: aiyaa. dowannah. i'll feel damn awkward.
S: aiya wont la.
me: but i damn shy.
S: tskkk. last time i nv talk to her also one. thn after sangamam i added her. shes gd at this stuff.
me: but you damn hot guy. everyone want to talk to you. i damn unhot.
S: what does hotguy have to with anything. idiot.

then we change topic again.

S: _ is just like a fancy. i talk to him alr. he allow me to like %.
me: he making you abit happy only.
S: Bollocks.
me: aiya. i like the girl in my dp (before you comment on my fickle mindedness or my sanity you should check what my msn dp is. lol.)
$ oso just a fancy

by this time i was going crazy and i decided i should go offline to study. in the end i couldnt do tt cos TheVarnus gave me a call and we talk until 12:48 am, i think.

but Sherlock damn smart eh. haha. but thanks anyway. (:
only 2 more days then BANG BANG! BOOM! RATATATATA! PWHOAR! BISH! FREEM! ZAP ZAP! DISHOOM! WHOOSH! ZOOM! WHACK! SLASH SLASH! BIFF! KABOOM! DIE DIE! TWANG! SPLASH! CLICK CLICK! BEEP BLEEP BLEEP! RING RING! THUCK! ONWARD TO GLORY!
roflmao.
i got vendetta against bio. i crave revenge after bio treacherously killed me in cts. now i wont rest until i pwnzorzxzxzxz it.

elucidation.

Ouch, I am damn damn damn hungry. The first few days are always the worse. And it doesn’t help that its promos tomorrow! whee! Good luck everyone for your promos! a wee bit less to the physics people since they end erm 3 days earlier? lol. No matter. Bio rocks. haha. but hey, chem. ownzxzx all. Even though tutorial 13 scared the shit out of me. haha.

oh yea. and sherlock, you just need to study your reactions and conditions before it all becomes clear. ;) sometimes its mindless junk anyway. hey, my chem isnt that good. but i wont say i never study. haha. in case you're interested he just sms me to tell me he nvr study on wed and thurs. lawl.

fasting rocks my socks.

pre-emptive? hmmm.

hey. now that i think about it, its supposed to be "hard left! HARD LEFT!!" but nvm. "hard right! HARD RIGHT!!" sounds minutely better.
actually, it may have been a pre emptive strike. hawhaw. nvm. shock and awe, ooh, aaah. all that economics must be getting to my brain. haha. that would actually make alot of sense? anything is sensible after you've watched an episode of "Ed, Edd and Eddy" man, is that show retarded. seriously.
and i watch hellsing ova 2 inbetween the mounds of economics. cool effects. especially the hellhounds. haha. alucard ownzxzxzx.

actually, it all looks abit fake nowadays. maybe its the truth finally coming to me, or the product of an overly competent imagination. haha. i think my proudest works are my fantasy worlds. haha. if only i could find a way to go inside them.

woo. that must have been the most incoherent post this year. oh wells. back to economics.

hard right! HARD RIGHT!!

well. nobody ever said anything about full scale massive deployment/ all out war/ shock and awe/ rapid advancement. i was nicely content in letting it be a more stealth/recon mission. of course things took a bad turn. some blithering idiot got spotted. bang bang bang. my troops died. like shit.

my adamantium hull was dented and worn. my power fist badly needed servicing and cleansing after smiting the daemons of slaanesh in the toilet last saturday. my psycannon was running out of ammo fast. things did not look very good.

i needed help. and i wasnt ashamed to ask for reinfocements or additional intelligence reports that better described the situation. i quickly composed a dossier of information in a harmless postcard that was meant for the most reliable of my inside contacts. all i had to do was to give it that insider. the grim faced judge. that was my last hope it seemed in begging for a cease fire. something went wrong in the delivery. my arm just froze in ice cold fear. the dossier still lies in my file. i had decided (well, it was really my fear that did the deciding).

of course the retreat wasnt so easy either. there i was walking down the relatively dark corridor with a few neutral companions in hopes of blending in and escaping undetected. i was wary but optimistic. fat hope.
ENEMY SPOTTED!! RANGE TEN FEET! ETA 5 SECONDS!!

omg. what should i do? what should i do? was i spotted yet? if i wasnt i would be very soon. into the stairs? no, still too visible. aha. i spotted my salvation.

hard right! HARD RIGHT!!! damn you! your incompetency will be the end of me!
where? WHERE?
into the toilet!

bang! i collided pretty painfully with one of the neutral companions. but that did not stop my headlong charge and i smashed through the wooden doors. then i forgot the resolution i made last saturday and prompty went about using the facilities. phew. that was a close one. there was still hope of escaping alive.

i carefully sneaked into the mess halls where i patiently waited for 2pm when i could collect the necessary documents that would permit me to leave that blasted facility. i scanned the area for my inside agents. i found him but he was not quite what i expected.

b: are you the hedge?
me: eh. what?
b: come on man. are you the hedge?
me: i dont know what you're talking about. i am not a hedge?
b: eh come on lah. be a man.

if you are as puzzled as i was, i dont blame you. the time was right. the clock had ticked 1:55 pm. my resistance comrade had sat down to tie her shoelaces or something. and then it happened. i tried to look as calm as possible. enemy contacts passed within five paces of me. one smiled (in what intentions i have no idea). the other, gave a stone faced look. half smirking half judging (or you could say i have no idea either).

BANG!
Sniper! OWowOw! me arm!
What! whats wrong with you?
Fool! next time, shoot yourself and rid me of your stupidity. now stop gawking around and help me up damn it.

after a few more hours of sneaking around, whatwas left of me finally reached the demilitarised zone. a temporary respite in a year full of struggles.

oh. surely i deserve a promotion to a gk dreadnaught, brother TheVarnus? i have stared down the face of chaos and left with my sanity intact. lol.

blur 3

i meant to write someone a thank you card. but i decided against it as i'm not sure of the possible consequences or side effects. i guess i am more wary now of whatever i do. lol. wish i was a couple of months ago.

blur 2?

microsoft zune white looks so lovely. hee. i dont know which is nicer, white video or white zune. not as if i'm going to buy either anyway. the rational side of me is still damn puzzled. but heck maybe i should just stick to my retro notebook.

blur.

for any people who dont know what fubar stand for, seriously, you all should watch more world war two shows. especially stuff like saving private ryan. haha. it stands for f***ed up beyond all recognition. easy.

i have conquered maths up to topic nine. only one more before i am fully prepared for promos! (for maths that it)
and irritatingly enough, twenty four hours after i've sent that sms, got people asking me that question i am slowly growing to hate. bahh.

_

This past two days have been fubar. repeat after me, fu... bar... three huge ordnance bombshells and there's still the rest of the weekend left. alot can happen.

I never realised it. pretty ironic eh? just when I wanted to tell some guy, about my biggest flaw, I get utterly destroyed because of it. any ounce of self esteem I have left after a ravenous lion attack was phased out. funny isnt it. its not the end result that mattered but its more of how it happened. of all the most retarded things to do, I chose to do what I did at a very unlucky time. and I think I paid quite big time for it though the rational side of me still remains puzzled. Everything may still be perfectly normal, but I'm not sure if I have sufficient willpower to overcome my subconscious mind. plus, there is still that never ending feeling of guilt at the realization that everything that happened was your bloody fault. so much like tzeentch.

"what have you done?"
"I merely gave you the tools to destroy yourself."

but even while I was swirling down the abyss, after getting headshot just after deplyment, it was only the good Chaplain TheVarnus that noticed my mood. while I refused to budge, the two hours before chem h3 engaging in some interesting discussion and the 1.5 hrs during chem h3 talking about necrons and stuff really made me very much more stable.

sorry plan for bothering you today too after yesterday's sms convo but I was just so traumatized after this afternoon. Its not everyday you nearly get assaulted in the toilet by a *ahem*. god, I was shit scared but thanks for somehow making me feel better. (:

but its quite unfair how I have been misunderstood. circumstances couldn't have helped me much. the innocently dumb things you do will come back to haunt you. this is a perfect example. at least I can gain solace in knowing that I alone know the full story. but I definitely shouldve been a lot smarter. i keep saying i've learnt my lesson but nothing seems to change each time. lalala.i've as good as lost one, but will i lose the other?
and as yensiang said,
"you are damn stupid."

beast

i knew it. kin wai would one day be the end of me. now he's out to murder me. hah. bring it on kinwai! hahaha. we'll see if really can kill me. school has become a scary place. lots of crazy beats and creatures roaming around. just yesterday, i encountered a rare breed of lioness previously seen and documented in Miss A's highly informative site.

me: you going training is it?
Lioness: yea, What?! What you looking at?
me: err. nothing. have fun training.

it could have ended at that, but me being the silly bugger that i am, decided to tease the lioness just before it was going to hunt. that proved to be very fatal at the beast lashed out with her claws, roaring away. i barely escaped with my self esteem near destroyed. loll.

me: go home and study. go home and mug.
Lioness: YOU GO AND TRAIN! YOUR FORM IS CRAP AND ITS GETTING WORSE! YOUR SHOOTING SUCK! YOUR.. (at this point, i decided to evade the beast)

ouch. that was really below the belt. even if she didnt mean it (somehow, her face did not seem to tell me this), it wasnt a very nice thing to say. i wanted to bravely defend myself and attempt to slay the creature. however, taking into consideration the fact that she had won medals for shooting many x's and hunting attention.
i decided to back off unnoticed in hopes that i'll make her think that she was shouting to noone and therefore look ridiculous. ouch. i went home with my nerves stinging.

hurrah! me and plan planning to play the mmorpg city of heroes/villains together after promos! after intense debate, we decided to play as heroes since by doing so, i'd be able to create a dark psychic female hero character called raven! omgomg.

me: raven so dark, powerful and angsty
k: raven not angsty wad.
me: yes she is, she got problems with her dad lorh.
k: thats not counted lah.
b: azrin likes angsty girls.
me: exciting wad.
k: whoa.

roflmao.

drilling.

oh well. Yesterday drilled into my head that my posts were too ambiguous, mysterious and full of riddles. No its not you king wai. You are just an irritant. Whoops. Maybe that was unintentional. But sometime I post something that tells someone or a specific few people something. So if you don't understand the post, chances are, its not meant for you or you are slow. Hmm. I'd think it was more of the first one. Hee.

miss A: you blog was readable (insert random 8 digit number) years ago.
miss A: tell me when you blog properly.
miss A: lol
me: wooo.

okae. I don't know why I said wooo. but ohwells. she may be right. hmm.
yest at around midnight, just before I was about to sleep the good Chaplain gave me a call. Started off with the usual crapping around. But then the topic moved on the ww2 veterans. Don't you think its sad, the generation that witnessed the most horrific war in human history is slowly passing away. infact they are almost gone. What will happen to the future generations, who wont have anyone to tell them the stories of hope, and price to pay for freedom? haiz. But it is the inevitable.

Then the Chaplain rang me up again this morning.

C: Eh, Dick Winters looks damn cool in his younger days.
me: you told me yesterday.
C: yah, but Dick Winters looks damn cool in his younger days.
me: yah but you told me that yesterday at 12 midnight.
C: eh you damn bad to me.
me: where got?
C: eh I don’t want to talk to already.
me: yay! Byebye!
C: eh you damn bad to me.

hmm.
Been rather productive ever since I came back. I now stand at 7 topics for maths all well practiced with only a few doubts left to be clarified. Whee. Then I shall do bio and chem during the weekdays. I need uninterrupted time for practicing math. haha. Now I need to go and finish lawry's card. Haha. Then, 2 people will owe me 2 cards each! muahahahahaha. nvm.
Nob: Can I kill Sturnn, boss? Show you I'ze a good Ork?
Gorgutz: No! Sturnn's mine! I want his head!
Nob: What's so special about his head?
Gorgutz: Dat's were da skull is, stupid! An' I'd look foolish with 'is foot on my pointy stik!
Nob: Stupid, stupid me! I knew dat one!
haha. This dialogue always gets me laughing. Typical ork intelligence. It may not seem funny in text but you must listen to it to get the full effect.

whee. Ork warboss. ohwell. Better get ready for school tmr. Its term 4! omg. Time passes so quickly in jc. Seems just like yest when I was feeling uneasy about jc life on the last day of hols in jan. And now its only 2 weeks to promos!
at least there is one bit of good news. my standing grey knight army will reach near full strenght in the next few weeks. all it needs now is a land raider! freemfreem.

electric.

i seem to be making a hell lot of typos these days.

She's Electric Lyrics
by Oasis

She's electric
She's in a family full of eccentrics
She done things I never expected
And I need more time
She's got a sister
And god only knows how I've missed her
On the palm of her hand is a blister
And I need more time

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time
And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more ....
Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?

She's got a brother
We don't get on with one another
But I quite fancy her mother
And I think that she likes me
She's got a cousin
In fact she's got 'bout a dozen
She's got one in the oven
But it's nothing to do with me

And I want you to know
I've got my mind made up now
But I need more time
And I want you to say
Do you know what I'm saying?
But I need more ....
Coz I'll be you and you'll be me
There's lots and lots for us to see
There's lots and lots for us to do
She is electric, can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?
Can I be electric too?

Teehee.

quotables

oh my god. gone for a couple of days and now i've snapped back into reality. did i see a coundown on msn that said only seventeen more days?!?!?! phwoar. and i was thinking there was still sufficient time. guess not. actually, there still is. assuming i mad rush. gogogogogo. eh but seriously, tau look damn good. woe betide all those exciting new demos that have emerged at this critical time. Chaplain TheVarnus has fallen prey to Company of Heroes it seems. but i remain true to the Emperor. workwork. at least today was amazingly productive. five topics all practised to perfection. teehee. havent had progress like that in weeks. whee.

cant wait man. seventeen days can appear to be too long or too short. but all hell will break lose after promos. my shopping list is rapidly increasing each time i visit Gamespy. not to mention the tedious task of finally finishing and rebuilding my Grey Knight Army. maybe i might dabble in a battle or two with the brethren at pi after a hiatus of almost a whole year? but ohwell. if i can secure that deal tonight, i can consider my army rebuilt already. tehee. just need some more heavy support options and not forgetting that cool gunslinger inquisitor. check it out.

he will be mine. eventually i hope. oh btw, he is from the year 40000 something. haha.
*edit* btw. he comes unpainted like the rest of my army. i'll have to handpaint him with my pro skills. hehe.

but i am still missing my apgp notes. help.

but still. i did go at a lousy time. none of the shops were open. i couldnt buy anything. ): but i did get a chance to write a card! haha. not very authentic cause i brought the card from home. i tell you, for the amount of bugs i had to battle just to sit there in the night i deserve something extra special. haha. nvm. at least it was very bright cause of the moonlight. and all the stars? haha. awesome.

you tend to notice more things when you grow older. (:
oh yea. before i forget. some guy called kwai should really stop bugging me about ahem ahem and focuss instead on h** ***n (corrent me if i spelt it wrongly. haha.) i foresee a whole barrage of scolding either on this tagboard or the next time i see him. bleah.

return

i have returned.
Your existence is a momentary distraction.
I walk into battle to unleash the wailing doom.
I will destroy your minds and burn your bodies.
Fall now, for your end is at hand.
The pieces are in place, it is time for me to make my move.
Death has arrived.

understand.

i fear what i cannot control.


grey knights own. purge the unclean.